Painful Realisation

It just hit me that I can no longer do outdoor activities. We spent the morning in the Singapore Botanic Garden and it was painful for me. As much as I hate admitting it, my physical body has deteriorated dramatically over the past year or so. Gone were the days I could spend hours with the kids in the park. Now I'm just a useless prick of a mum with chronic pain. Depression setting in... great. Wish I could put my head in the freezer to stop everything from firing.

Never Ask Unless You Are Willing To Accept The Answer

I'm sure I make this mistake as well, but as a person with chronic disorder, I often find my teeth clenched when people respond to my answer to their "How are you feeling?" with sarcasm or disbelief. The truth of the matter is - I am unwell. On good days I am tired, and on not so wonderful ones, I have aches and pains. So, what do you want to hear? Maybe it's a burden to know that I'm not feeling good... ever. In that case, just stop asking. I promise I'll not blame you or stop you from doing what I can't do. I'm fine, really.

Depressed

心情又掉到谷里... 这次谁都没说。