How do I even begin to tell my tale? It has been the most turbulent flight for the past 6 months. Now we are at the critical moment. We either crash and end our misery or somehow manage an emergency ending in the middle of nowhere and find a way out or back. As far as I'm concerned, I haven't got the ability or confidence to secure a safe landing. CK is still searching for land and we are running out of fuel. But at least we have finally acknowledged and declared code red.