Mummy Woes

I wish I was ignorant. Then I wouldn't know my mother's love for her children. Her yearning heart for her grandchildren's laughter. And her growing pain that separates them.

I wish I was ignorant. Then I couldn't see my own inadequacy. My futile struggle to make things right. And my guilt that gnaws at me.

But I am not ignorant and I thank God for that. For I know I am just a mere mortal with earthly strengths and flaws. That I have my loved ones in mind when I pray.

Mummy Woes

I wish I was ignorant. Then I wouldn't know my mother's love for her children. Her yearning heart for her grandchildren's laughter. And her growing pain that separates them.

I wish I was ignorant. Then I couldn't see my own inadequacy. My futile struggle to make things right. And my guilt that gnaws at me.

But I am not ignorant and I thank God for that. For I know I am just a mere mortal with earthly strengths and flaws. That I have my loved ones in mind when I pray.

Migraine

My goodness! I was really exhausted because of Sophie and Alfee, but I did not realise just how badly my body needed a rest. One moment I was reading a parenting book and the next I was seeing nothing but blackness and flashes of light. I thought my eyes were tired, but they did not get better after a few minutes. instead, the blackness grew bigger. I panicked. I quickly close my eyes to rest, only to allow my senses to detect a dull but intensifying pain above my eyes. And the familiar nausea that hit me right in the stomach. I knew then, I was having a migraine attack.

Fearing that it may escalate into a full blown episode again, I headed for the showers, wolfed down a bun and Panadol, smeared medicated oil on my forehead and did a timeout on myself. After an hour or so, I lost the pain and I could see again. However, I know it was still lurking around so I quickly settle my kids for the day and rested. I never experience such an attack and I hope I was right that it was just an migraine.

Migraine

My goodness! I was really exhausted because of Sophie and Alfee, but I did not realise just how badly my body needed a rest. One moment I was reading a parenting book and the next I was seeing nothing but blackness and flashes of light. I thought my eyes were tired, but they did not get better after a few minutes. instead, the blackness grew bigger. I panicked. I quickly close my eyes to rest, only to allow my senses to detect a dull but intensifying pain above my eyes. And the familiar nausea that hit me right in the stomach. I knew then, I was having a migraine attack.

Fearing that it may escalate into a full blown episode again, I headed for the showers, wolfed down a bun and Panadol, smeared medicated oil on my forehead and did a timeout on myself. After an hour or so, I lost the pain and I could see again. However, I know it was still lurking around so I quickly settle my kids for the day and rested. I never experience such an attack and I hope I was right that it was just an migraine.

Bugs

Here's a season to lose sleep... Bad weather and new term, Sophie is down again with fever and cough. Second one since school begins. Somehow her body can't cope with the new routine (half the term gone already), so she just succumbs to bugs... Hopefully Alfee would be spared! He is due for jabs next week and I m still a little traumatized by what happened the last time we did it (fever, UTI, antibiotics, scan and MCU etc). Just had a nightmare and I can shake the image off! Usually I am able to know it's a dream but I was too tired just now to tell apart dreams and reality...Checked on Sophie and found her cold little body curled like a prawn. She kicked off her blanket and her fever broke, so she was shivering. When we co-sleep, she would just hug me for warm (maybe the other way round). But now I have to separate Alfee and her... The bed seems too big now.

Season To Lose Sleep

Here's a season to lose sleep... Bad weather and new term, Sophie is down again with fever and cough. Second one since school begins. Somehow her body can't cope with the new routine (half the term gone already), so she just succumbs to bugs...

Hopefully Alfee wld b spared! He is due for jabs next week and I m still a little traumatized by what happened the last time we did it (fever, UTI, antibiotics, scan and MCU etc). Just had a nightmare and I can shake the image off! Usually I m able to know it's a dream but I was too tired just now to tell apart dreams and reality...

Checked on Sophie and found her cold little body curled like a prawn. She kicked off her blanket and her fever broke, so she was shivering. When we co-sleep, she would just hug me for warm (maybe the other way round). But now I have to separate Alfee and her... The bed seems too big now.

A Dream Come True?

After Sophie was born, I started hoping for a job that allows me to work from home. Despite all, I still want to work and I have not been able to find any job since then. Recently, I saw an ad in Facebook for freelance writer so I quickly wrote in. I did not think my chances were high because the response was overwhelming. Yet, I received a message last week by the editor that she likes my work (mainly blogs and crafts) and she wants me to write for them. Imagine my excitement! Nothing confirmed but I am expecting some assignments soon. I love the feeling that I can be contributing economically again! And to do what I enjoy - craft and writing! I am so lucky.

A Dream Come True?

After Sophie was born, I started hoping for a job that allows me to work from home. Despite all, I still want to work and I have not been able to find any job since then. Recently, I saw an ad in Facebook for freelance writer so I quickly wrote in. I did not think my chances were high because the response was overwhelming. Yet, I received a message last week by the editor that she likes my work (mainly blogs and crafts) and she wants me to write for them. Imagine my excitement! Nothing confirmed but I am expecting some assignments soon. I love the feeling that I can be contributing economically again! And to do what I enjoy - craft and writing! I am so lucky.